no post yesterday due to my foot. i've been laying on the couch keeping it elevated most of the time, and i hate trying to type out my inner most thoughts on my cell phone.
anyway.
due to being set up and inactive, i have been reading again. i finished one book that i had been reading awhile back, "The Psychopath Test" by Jon Ronson. i cannot gush over this book enough. it's absolutely insane, enlightening, and brilliant. it is not an easy book to explain, so i'm not going to even try because i wouldn't do it the justice it deserves. the most i can offer you is this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYemnKEKx0c
so now that i'm done with that book, i had to find something else to read. this is nothing, really, as i have books stacked on top of more books fall off of shelves and various places around the house. so then came the task of choosing a book out of the plethora. this, too, turned out to be an easy task, as my partner immediately announced which book should be at the top of the list. so he ran to whichever room it was in, and quickly returned with the book, "Letters to a Young Therapist," by Mary Pipher. i'll let you know more about it once i really get into it. i'm only on letter five right now, out of 27 letters.
with my foot hurting, and a lot of time on my hands that i'm just wasting cause i can't get up and do much, i have found myself craving to use again. it would be so easy to go see my doctor and get whatever i want. i've held my phone in my hand with his office's number ready to dial, fighting with myself over it. i have people i can talk to about all of this, even outside of my therapist, but i always feel as though i'm just being petty and wasting their time. i hate bothering people, and that's what i feel like i'm doing.
so i'll just grit my teeth and white knuckle through it. sleep is my best friend.
- xian
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