so i know i said i was going to try and keep up with this more often, but it's been a crazy couple of weeks for me.
since the beginning of the semester, and since my financial aid fell through, i have been trying to reconcile with the fact that i'm not going to be going to school for awhile. or, at least in the way i have in the past. after much deliberation, and talking it out with my therapist, i've decided to switch gears altogether and return to my roots of art. well, graphic design to be more specific. creating makes me happy, and without it in my life i feel like a part of me is missing. it's essential to my core, and by denying it i've been denying who i am.
so i've looked into a few different options for how to go about achieving this goal of working in the graphic design field, and i've come up with two, well really three viable options. 1) go to university and get my bachelor's degree - plain and simple. get financial aid, and go through the two year program. 2) go to the art institute and go through their program, which i don't have a lot of information on. and lastly 3) go through the certification program offered by the continuing ed program through the local community college. this would be the cheapest and fastest route.
with 6 core courses and 4 electives, the certification program can be completed in less than a year, and altogether costs way less than just two semesters at university. after talking to an awesome cousin of mine who is in the industry and has gone both the certification and bachelor's degree route, the certification program continues to look more and more appealing. however, i have awhile to think about it. classes are only a month long, so they're kind of spread out as to when the next one starts. there's one that begins in november, then one in january and another in february. in november i have my psych appointment to have my meds checked on, and i think there will be some adjusting to them due to some issues i have been having lately. so i don't want to put the stress of school on top of my meds changing, and giving it a couple of months to let them run their course seems like a wise decision to me. so i'm looking at starting in january at the very earliest.
i'm excited about the new prospect of this adventure, but i'm also definitely a little scared. and it takes a lot for me to admit that i'm scared. i really struggled last semester due to my mental health issues, and though i got through it, if it wasn't for the support of three very selfless people, i wouldn't have made it. so now i'm looking at going back, and while it's only one class at a time, it's still going to be a lot of work, i know. and i'm not afraid of the work itself, i actually like that part. no, i'm afraid of the stress that it will put on my mind and how my newly medicated brain will react. but i can't let fear dictate my life. this is something that i know is right for me. it's beneficial to my future, in many many ways.
so that's what i've got. i've been working on a lot of designs lately, so maybe i'll post some of those later on, or tomorrow.
'til then...
- xian
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